Just got done with Malone's senior photo shoot. Amazing, remarkable and healing are all words I would use to describe the time we spent with Scott and Deb Fillmer out at their farm. Malone laughed and joked in his dry sense of humor like I haven't seen him do in a long time. I do believe there has been so much healing and that he is breathing somewhat of a sigh of relief to finally be starting his senior year. It's like we were in a holding pattern all of last year. I want to get impatient and I forget that the Lord is always up to something during these times.
I have been praying for a long time for all of our kids not only that God would give them the desires of their heart, but that their hearts would be aligned with His heart for them. Not gonna lie...the past year and a half have been overwhelmingly difficult, mostly for Malone but also for those closest to him. His heart has beaten the beat that matched the dribbling of a basketball for a very long time. Like since he was 5. He literally for awhile, slept with a basketball in his bed. He has had dreams of still moving forward with basketball big in the picture. This is where it becomes hard as his Mom not to dash his dreams but also help him to be realistic...and so I said nothing. To him. I just prayed and prayed.
And the other day Malone said two things to me and one of them was "Mom, I just don't have the passion for basketball that I did before. I don't hate it or anything but it's just not as fun." Thank you Lord for hearing this mom's cries and doing "more than we can think to ask." That is huge healing in him because I believe it's a release of a thing that was still having a hold on him.
The other thing he said that ranks about the same on the remarkable scale was "Mom, I like school. It's not hard like it was last year." Again, thank you Lord for answered prayers. I watched Malone Friday run in with the LSA flags on Friday at the pep rally (there are no pictures because I apparently had something in my eyes that was making them water). More healing as he is happy to be at his school where he is in his 15th year, surrounded by people who love him and are FOR him. Just like Jesus "If God is FOR us, (and He most definitely is) then who can stand against us."
May the Lord grant me the desires of my heart, but first align them with His heart for me!
